So as a newly active but long time lurking account, I figure now is as good a Time as ever to let you guys in on my mindset a little bit. I can't tell you what truly awake is but I can tell you that from as long as I can remember I have been knee deep in the belly of the Beast. I am 27 years old born in 1994 March, I am former United States Navy hospital corpsman, I was born in Los Angeles California and until 18 months old I live there as well after which I was adopted and I ended up living in Rancho Cucamonga until about 10, Victorville until about 15, and at that time when my parents divorced I moved with my mother to South Florida in Naples and Fort Myers where I graduated high school and did a year at Florida Gulf Coast University. I remember 9/11 like it was yesterday and as a small child my mother being from Newark New Jersey I had visited before when going to visit family in New York. I have pictures in front of the towers before they fell. However I was only about 7 at the time so it didn't really wake me up or make me question anything I was a child I accepted the narrative than my parents gave me and they said that the narrative that the country gave them or the government. I was raised in a pretty more or less strict Christian house my parents are African-American I am African-American and I was also raised by two liberal Democrats. I have never voted and I do not have a political affiliation I have always since voting age believe that voting was rigged. Now that we have some establishing facts let's talk about when I would call myself woken up, there were three more left stages of this for me but it began when I was about 16 years old in South Florida. I had a English teacher who was a ghost hunter. I don't even know what to make of ghosts or ghost hunting because it's kind of like the last thing on my mind with all the other stuff going on but you had a lot of other interesting books notably the fate magazines, which if you Google it you'll see exactly what they have in them. Basically anything we talked about on these boards were being published in those magazines at the time. Fate magazine. So after becoming like a UFO nerd conspiracy nerd or whatever this is probably 2011 coming up on 2012 everyone's expecting the so-called world to end as we know it or something and my cousin's baby daddy was a 5 percenter or a nation of gods and Earths type Muslim, or another words a black supremacist. I am not a supremacist and I do not condone supremacist views, I must also interject here and say that I became disillusioned around 16 from Christianity and I attempted to convert to Judaism. That wasn't going to work lol. So after hearing about the Quran and Islam Through The Eyes of a 5 percenter talks about the grafted race and jakub, this was what I would say was my second stage where I began to look at spirituality and religions and the actual meaning and I began to smell the esoteric nature. Finally stage 3, in other words where I find myself now, after reading those titles that I posted in the thread that I made yesterday I began to be able to understand exactly how little I actually know. And yes I will say that reading has woken up more than anything else. I have studied quite a bit by now, from Sumerian Tablets Epic of Gilgamesh Hinduism egyptology and their echoes into Buddhism judeo-christian beliefs Islam Roman and Greek pantheon and ygdrasil, UFO ology about so called annunaki, reptilians, zeta riticulans grey's insectoids, the blue alien chicken from Futurama, Rosicrucianism Freemasonry and harim abiff, Helena blavatsky, Aleister Crowley, the black pope the Jesuit order the Roman Catholic Church, I mean if I just keep listing stuff we're going to be here forever. Anyways I used to really like science fiction like Star Wars and Marvel Comics Transformers or whatever but I've come to realize aliens zombie magicians and witches vampires are also much more real than we could have ever imagined the problem is we are talk to these things are Fantastical and they cannot be real in our world however there are real versions of these things that we now have let slide under the rug because we don't even think they could be real. I don't connect myself to any mainstream religion or spirituality but I do know that there is God consciousness I'm not talking about that new age bullshit, I do think that the religions and spirituality Echo the same tune and they are onto something but again I find myself so jaded and disillusioned in this world I have a hard time concretely believing anything. Especially when you start to get into how holographic our reality is how our perception and our senses our reality how those things can be deceived and stimulated and altered you know it gets real hairy out here guys. I stationed myself a spy Within the q / "white supremacist " movement ( I know all qtards are not racist) and I have spoken to Santos Bonacci and the quantum businessman from YouTube. But no man has any real answers to me. Science is really cool and all but I do believe that the mainstream is ignoring a connection to spirituality and ignoring the fact that we know so little about science that we actually don't really have a grip on it all that well sure we cloned sheep 30 years ago sure we hacked into DNA 15 years ago sure we can create a black hole in the Large Hadron Collider probably 5-10 years ago I still don't think we have a hold on things that well. Well thank you for reading my speal, if you read this far, I have a question for anyone who cares to answer this is something that I myself don't have a solid opinion on but part of me does believe that it could be true, I have seen and heard in certain places amongst the conspiracy Community or truth Community or whatever that there are no more nuclear bombs or that there never really were maybe I don't believe that part but I have heard that either extraterrestrials have come and disarmed all of our nukes or that we simply disarmed them ourselves and don't use them. On the exact flip end of that it is well known and documented publicly that the Russian Federation and United States military supposedly have enough nuclear bombs to blow the planet up a few times over. Neither country has ever threatened to do so and both countries have actively said that they take measures to make sure that that would never happen but really 5000 you sitting around between the two of them I don't know, I have however heard of the Jericho option that so called Israel has enough nukes to blow the world over as well and will actually do it if threatened if their nation is so threatening that they feel that they have no way out they allegedly will flip the table on the game. please respond with any opinion on that
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